Tuesday, September 05, 2006

My first lesson learnt..

ok so i've learnt a lesson already. I think I'm addicted to porn. I thought I'd be alright just having a look at some pictures on the net and not masturbate. Which is

A) pointless

B) impossible

So I've failed already. But then again I've leant a valuable lesson. Porn is only for wanking, so I'll just never look at it again. I knew this was going to be hard, but 3 days??? Shit. It's a bit like giving up fags, you need to start again a few times to relaise you really want to stop. I'm starting again. Reset the clock. Day 0.

Monday, September 04, 2006

Jesus - how much porn is in these blogs?

So I've hit my first problem already - by calling this blog spunk free - i'm listed with millions of porn blogs. Talk about dancing with the devil. This is going to be a nightmare.

I'm giving up wanking

So I've been thinking. I had my first wank when i was 12 - the summer of 1989, will never forget it - like i'm sure you don't your first time. How old were you? I thought i was going to faint with pleasure. I'm now 28. That means 16 years of good, solid wanking. And i really like wanking. No more or less than the next man..whch is obviously lots. I've been trying to think if I've ever given myseelf a break from it - maybe a week during some illness? I can't think of one...I'm a trouper when it comes to knocking one out - I've battle wanked through flu, migranes, gladular fever; but i'm sure you're not surprised..we all do...

So some facts now...I wank pretty much every day if I can...it's part of my daily life now, i get annoyed if my day is too busy to fit one in. But the fun's gone out of it really, it's become an almost automatic physsical thing and like everything in life if you do it too much then the pleasure's diluted.

So 16 years on and it's time for a change. I'm going to give up wanking. I'd like to say for ever but that's not going to happen, so for a while anyway. And cos wanking's such a uniquely private affair (does your girlfriend honesty know how much you wank? HONESTLY?) then i thought it best to share this emotional journey with people - and a blog seemed the best way to share my experience. Cos who else am I goiong to tell??

I remember the guy from the TV show This Life talking about wanking saying "how can something this good be FREE and ON TAP". Well for now I'm turning off the taps. It's going to be really hard. I've got a girlfiend so am still going to have sex. Part of this experiment is to see how my attitude to sex changes now i'm not sorting myself out. We don't have sex enough anyway - maybe sometimes I'd wank instead cos it's easier - so it'll be interesting if things change in the bedroom. Also am I addicted to porn? Probably so it'll be interesting going cold turkey with something so easy to get a fix of. Especially having to log on to write this every day!

I'm new to blog culure so I've no idea if anyone is going to read this - but if you are reading this then please leave a comment. Am I on my on here?

Or maybe even have a wank break as well and see how you get on. But I'm warning you - it's only day 3 of no wanking and i'm already fighting the urge. The path to inner calm or a one way ticket to Crimewatch? we'll see...it's going to be interesting...